Tanhaai kyun???

Kyun aisi ummeed ki maine
           Jo aise naakam hui
Door banaai thi manzil to
          Raste main hi shaam hui
Ab kahan jaaun main
         Kisko samjhaaun main
Kyaa maine chaha tha aur
         kyun kismet me aayi "Tanhaai"

Dil ke raaste main kaisi
           thokar maine khaayi
Toote khwaab saare
           ek maayusi hai chaayi
Har khushi so gayi
          Zindagi kho gayi
Tumko jo Pyaar kya maine
           To sazaa me paayi "Tanhaai"

I fell in love with Mother India at the wrong point/stage of my life. I could've made a huge career out of my education and intelligence, but I chose to serve the country and ended up where I am today. Disoriented, uninterested, lost, destroyed, aimless, directionless, and many other -ve adjectives. And I don't see the need to come out of this stage anytime. That's why No socialising, no meeting people, no friend or enemy, no relations, no existence.

That's also why I run enthusiastically to perform any task the Govt entrusts me with. Whether putting Ink on fingers or observing or counting votes. And also the reason I follow the politics of the day. To see the fate of my Mother India.

Now, for myself, the only answer that makes sense is A Vairaagi Shiv and his unsocial ways. Someone who is as disoriented, uninterested, lost, destroyed, aimless, directionless, etc. , as me. No other way computes or makes sense.